I have not been very good at keeping my exercise goals this week. I have not woken up for early morning runs since... oh? August 16. Blah. I need this to change, I need to find some motivation. Perhaps it has to do with the seasons changing, and it is no longer light and bright outside when I leave for the gym. There is just something about forcing yourself awake before the sun, it seems unnatural for me, and maybe a little depressing. I think the biggest culprit though is my work-load at my job. I have been about 4x as busy as I usually am. I know because I track the # of claims I receive, phone calls I make and orders I process.
I find that when I am stressed I eat MORE and exercise LESS,which leads to fluctuations w/ my body, which means I can already tell that my pants are just a little too tight this week, my double chin starts to show more, my belly is more noticeable.... which leads me to being more disappointed in myself and more depressed. I need to get out of this cycle.
Oh, and I had a doughnut at work today. Why?! Why did I do that? seriously, was I hungry? no! I was bored or stressed or it was just in front of me so I divulged. However, I would have much rather divulged in something more tasteful than a 69 cent doughnut. Gross. Where was my conscience to remind me: "do you really need that doughnut? Is it really going to solve your problem?" No, I just desperately need to get back on schedule for my sanity.
You know, I read this Chinese proverb in Malcom Gladwell's The Outliers, "No one who can rise before dawn three hundred sixty days a year fails to make his family rich." Which, I don't think necessarily means monetary wealth. Maybe it can guide you to a mantra or motivation you're looking for, that rising to run daily (which I never, ever have done) will not fail to make you feel healthier, more energized, giving you the strength to accomplish your goals both personal and professional. But don't get down on yourself dear! I think balance is important, sometimes you need a 69 cent doughnut just cause..
ReplyDeletewaking up sucks, especially when it's still dark outside! I think our bodies are just exhausted from the summer fun we've been having, I know I've been having a hard time too.
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